♕ |[10]| Filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;

[had_not_lived]

[Accidental Voice Post]

N-no, it's not fair... You can't be here, too. you can't. How did you--

[A chair clatters to the floor as Neil backs up into it; he grunts a little as he trips over it, keeps going. Obviously whoever he's talking to, he doesn't want to be anywhere near them. He pauses for a moment; but no other voice is audible.]

I'm not going to-- don't come any closer-- I won't drop out. I don't want to, and they need me, and you haven't done anything for me and how could you even say that, after what happened? This is all I've ever wanted to do, why won't you understand...

[His voice drops nearly to a whisper, but he sounds much bolder, much more sure of himself.]

You can't make me give it up. I won't. My friends here won't let you-- you can't make me do anything!

I won't!!


[ooc; guess who was in Neil's living room this morning. ;____; as long as he gets the gist of this being a curse he'll be fine to perform later. if a little freaked out. SO PERFECT BRB WEEPING WITH JOY]

Comments

[had_not_lived]

Acting is everything to me. He didn't want me to last time, and when I disobeyed him... Not like anything worse can happen...

1/2

[reginagloriae]

[reginagloriae]

It's your life, Neil, all you want to be is be yourself. He can't take away that. The only one who can is you. He's impotent to your choices.

[had_not_lived]

If anyone could find a way to ruin this place, it'd be him.

[reginagloriae]

You won't let him. We won't let him. This is a just a curse day, anyways, take advantage and face your dad.

[had_not_lived]

I don't want to face him, I want him to go away.

[reginagloriae]

That won't happen until midnight. Meanwhile, you should give him a good show.

[had_not_lived]

He was there last time, you know. Watching. If he hadn't come-- if he'd just stayed away, if he didn't find out I'd disobeyed him... everything would have been all right.

I thought maybe seeing would change his mind...

[reginagloriae]

Maybe you can make it magical this time. Call it his present for today.

[had_not_lived]

Maybe... I dunno. I mean, it's not really him...

It doesn't matter what he thinks, though. I'm not going to let it stop me from doing something I love.

[reginagloriae]

He can't. Just be yourself, if he chooses to love or not how you're is up to him, you have nothing to do with his choice.