♕ |[10]| Filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;

[had_not_lived]

[Accidental Voice Post]

N-no, it's not fair... You can't be here, too. you can't. How did you--

[A chair clatters to the floor as Neil backs up into it; he grunts a little as he trips over it, keeps going. Obviously whoever he's talking to, he doesn't want to be anywhere near them. He pauses for a moment; but no other voice is audible.]

I'm not going to-- don't come any closer-- I won't drop out. I don't want to, and they need me, and you haven't done anything for me and how could you even say that, after what happened? This is all I've ever wanted to do, why won't you understand...

[His voice drops nearly to a whisper, but he sounds much bolder, much more sure of himself.]

You can't make me give it up. I won't. My friends here won't let you-- you can't make me do anything!

I won't!!


[ooc; guess who was in Neil's living room this morning. ;____; as long as he gets the gist of this being a curse he'll be fine to perform later. if a little freaked out. SO PERFECT BRB WEEPING WITH JOY]

Comments

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[reginagloriae]

Neil...

[reginagloriae]

That won't happen. He has no power over you.

[had_not_lived]

It's not fair, he shouldn't get to--

Youko, he wants me to drop the play. Again. Still. I dunno.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Don't listen to him, Neil.

[banditfox.livejournal.com]

Are you all right, Mr. Perry?

[had_not_lived]

I'm not dropping out. I won't. We've done too much, I can't leave you all now.

He's not supposed to be here, I don't want him here, and he won't leave me alone...

[reginagloriae]

What do you want to do? You're the director, not your dad.

[had_not_lived]

I--

My father's here. I dunno how he got into our apartment.

[had_not_lived]

Acting is everything to me. He didn't want me to last time, and when I disobeyed him... Not like anything worse can happen...

[banditfox.livejournal.com]

If it's of a personal nature, I won't pry, but I would hope his presence doesn't become too odious.

[had_not_lived]

He won't leave.

He-- He can't make me do anything here, can he? They won't let him, will they?

[banditfox.livejournal.com]

He's only an apparition. You make your own choices.

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[reginagloriae]

[reginagloriae]

It's your life, Neil, all you want to be is be yourself. He can't take away that. The only one who can is you. He's impotent to your choices.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I know you won't. You're stronger than that, Neil, and...and you're doing what you love, and he has no right to tell you not to. You think for yourself, just like your teacher taught you, remember? He believed in you, and I do, too.

Do you want me to come keep you company, so you don't have to listen to him alone?

[had_not_lived]

I'm not quitting.

[had_not_lived]

I'm not sure it's a good idea...

[had_not_lived]

If anyone could find a way to ruin this place, it'd be him.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Will you be all right, though? You and Todd both...

[had_not_lived]

He won't leave, but he hasn't laid a hand on me. Yet.. So, I guess.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Hasn't what?! He'd better not!

[had_not_lived]

He's just-- strict.

I'll be okay. I'll be okay.

They won't-- he isn't in charge of me, here. Is he?

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

He most certainly is not. You are. And if he tries to tell you differently, it's a lie.

[had_not_lived]

Well...

But he is my father, even after everything. I'm supposed to... to respect him.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

Neil, it...it goes both ways, though, doesn't it? I'd never suggest that you disrespect your father, but...it's possible to respect your father's opinions and still disagree with them. And it should be the same for him, too--even if he doesn't agree with your choices, he should still respect them. You're his son. And yes, he's your father, but part of being a good father is teaching your children how to make good choices, even if...even if they're not the same choices you might've made yourself. Because he's not you, and you're not him.

That's so, isn't it, Daddy...?