♕ |[56]| the bells I hear, the people all exulting,

[had_not_lived]

[private thoughts]
It's difficult, in the depths of winter, not to think about... things I shouldn't think about. Where I've been and what I've done, part of seizing the day is not getting caught up in regret. The past shapes us, it doesn't have to define us. I said that a hundred times and-- I think, did it make a difference?

I don't know.

But I ought to think about the good things, not the awful ones, even if sometimes it's hard to separate them here. It's been more of a good year than a bad one, hasn't it? Part of that is how you look at it, though. I try to see the good side when I can manage it. Sometimes, though...

Maybe it would all have been a little easier if it wasn't Christmas.

Justin was a true Poet and a member of the Society without knowing it. I just hope he knew knows what a difference he made while he was here.

[/private]

New Year's is a funny holiday to celebrate, here, since I think really the only reason there's a year or a month even is through consensus. Because everyone says there's no one in the City except people who were brought here, and without people there wouldn't be any time. Or at least, no measuring time. But time does pass, the seasons change, so I guess the year does too.

I suppose I should be thinking about what plays we should do next. I don't really want to make resolutions, I don't think I've changed my philosophy any so I'd resolve to do the same thing I always mean to do.

I hope the New Year has more good days than bad ones, I think that's all I can really say.

Comments

[had_not_lived]

Well but sooner or later you'll end up with "light green" and "really light green" and "even lighter green."

[adamantined]

Yeah, but what about 'jade' and 'neon green' and 'grass green' and 'that kid's vomit green.'

[had_not_lived]

"That kid's vomit green" would be a lame year to be born in.

[adamantined]

But it'd be an interesting conversation starter.

[had_not_lived]

If this past year had a color, what do you think it would be?

1/2

[adamantined]

Chartreuse?

[adamantined]

And I don't know, really. Maybe... different shades of blue.

[had_not_lived]

You think it was a blue year?

[adamantined]

I know that sounds incredibly depressing, but... well, it kind of reminds me of waves. I mean, that sounds stupid. Obviously blue is going to remind you of the ocean. But it's not just the ocean part as much as the rising and falling. Things have been bad, so they've been a darker blue, but things have been really good, too, sometimes, so that's when it's brighter. You could probably argue that with every color, but red is just too bold and yellow is just too bright, and when it's not bright, it just looks gross. Blue just fits. It's got a wide range.

[had_not_lived]

That makes sense. As long as you're not saying the year's just left you singing the blues, I think it's all right.

[adamantined]

No, nothing like that.