♕ |[56]| the bells I hear, the people all exulting,

[had_not_lived]

[private thoughts]
It's difficult, in the depths of winter, not to think about... things I shouldn't think about. Where I've been and what I've done, part of seizing the day is not getting caught up in regret. The past shapes us, it doesn't have to define us. I said that a hundred times and-- I think, did it make a difference?

I don't know.

But I ought to think about the good things, not the awful ones, even if sometimes it's hard to separate them here. It's been more of a good year than a bad one, hasn't it? Part of that is how you look at it, though. I try to see the good side when I can manage it. Sometimes, though...

Maybe it would all have been a little easier if it wasn't Christmas.

Justin was a true Poet and a member of the Society without knowing it. I just hope he knew knows what a difference he made while he was here.

[/private]

New Year's is a funny holiday to celebrate, here, since I think really the only reason there's a year or a month even is through consensus. Because everyone says there's no one in the City except people who were brought here, and without people there wouldn't be any time. Or at least, no measuring time. But time does pass, the seasons change, so I guess the year does too.

I suppose I should be thinking about what plays we should do next. I don't really want to make resolutions, I don't think I've changed my philosophy any so I'd resolve to do the same thing I always mean to do.

I hope the New Year has more good days than bad ones, I think that's all I can really say.

Comments

[inmyothertights]

More good days than bad days. I'm up for that resolution.

[had_not_lived]

It's not entirely one we can keep or not keep, but we can do our best to enjoy what we get, right?

[inmyothertights]

Better than not trying at all.

my resolution is to eventually have that double-date log >3

[had_not_lived]

Exactly.

Do you have any resolutions for the coming year?

>3

[inmyothertights]

Try to learn to cook something without using the deep-fat fryer.

[mumbled_truth]

Sometimes bad days also have good parts. Moments that keep them from being entirely horrible.

I think we should make sure we appreciate those, too.

[had_not_lived]

That's true.

You should note that as an addendum in the minutes.

[mumbled_truth]

So noted.

Um. I might be able to help, too.

[had_not_lived]

Help what?

[no-defender.livejournal.com]

I wonder if we're actually orbiting anything.

[had_not_lived]

I'm not even sure if this is a whole planet.

[no-defender.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure whether it would make more or less sense for this to be an isolated part of an actual planet or some sort of...I can't even begin to guess what else. I don't know why I bother thinking about these kinds of things.

[had_not_lived]

I don't think there's really any way for us to ever know, since we can't get past the City's barriers. But it's interesting to think about, to imagine what the truth might be, even if we can't really know.

I want to MARRY YOU for that pun. Right now. Get in the car, we're going to Vegas.

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

I think that's a very wise hope to have, Neil. More good days than bad ones is a fine goal to set, for a new year.

/puts on a dress and some heels

[had_not_lived]

It's not a real resolution, I don't think, because of course we can't do much about the curses and things but I don't think it's too much to ask.

/revs the engine

[primrosella.livejournal.com]

No, but we can do something about the way we take the curses, I think, and how much we let them bother us. Some curses will always be worse than others, of course, but the less we let them upset us, the better.

/sees paradise by the dashboard light

[had_not_lived]

Exactly. I don't like when they get the better of me. Sometimes it can't be helped, but it's well worth making the effort.

[Voice]

[sitaronthewater.livejournal.com]

The deities go along with the seasons and stuff, though.

That sounds good, though. More good days than bad.

[Voice]

[had_not_lived]

Whether the seasons are real or not, they've been fairly predictable while I've been here. Not counting the couple of snowy days in summer or Christmas weekend.

I'm not all that ambitious, I guess, but I think it's a good attitude.

[Voice]

[sitaronthewater.livejournal.com]

Yeah, there's always the same sort of weather curse.

I don't think that attitude has to do with what curses we get.

[Voice]

[had_not_lived]

I don't like letting curses get the better of me.

[adamantined]

I think it's weird that this place has settled on a year at all when we're all from different points in time.

Happy Early New Year, though.

[had_not_lived]

Exactly! I mean, it does seem like it's probably closer to the year people say it is than to 1959, but who's to say it's any likelier to be turning two-thousand eleven than two-thousand thirty, or nineteen ninety-five, or maybe only six hundred, or five, or eight thousand, because really, what are they even measuring from?

Whatever year it is, I hope it's happy for you, too.

[adamantined]

Maybe we should just make up a year completely based on not-numbers. Like it should be year Magenta or something. No one can come along and say, oh, actually it's year Turquoise where I come from.

... And now that I've said that, someone's going to show up with colors for years.

[had_not_lived]

Wouldn't you run out after a little while?