had_not_lived | ♕ |[25]| Where neither red, nor gold, nor wine, nor the rhythm of life is known.

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♕ |[25]| Where neither red, nor gold, nor wine, nor the rhythm of life is known.

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I didn't mean to go through. I was only trying to see if I could find Anne, and while I was looking in it's like it moved to swallow me up and.

[There's a pause here as Neil tries to collect himself. He's managing not to sniffle, but not even trying to hide how distraught he is.]

I'm sorry, I'm so sorry, I didn't know I'd fall through.

I want to come back. Please. I don't want to be here.

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[Neil would rather face the end of the world with Todd than eternity without him. But then, he's always been given to extremes. He laughs, a little giddy with fear and the relief of knowing Todd still loves him; and of course now it seems obvious.]

I really thought you were mad.

[He manages a soft, short laugh at that, rather lacking in humor.]

I thought you were mad.

I was just... tired. [Sigh.] I'm sorry.

Yeah... I was, too.

[There's a slight pause as a thought occurs to him.]

Neil?

Yeah?

If you're still... I mean, I'm still...

[He hesitates, never liking to bring this topic up.]

You know.

You have to still be in the City, somehow.

[He pauses for a long while.]

It seems that way, doesn't it? But I don't know how to get out of here.

I could try to break the door, or a window. But I'm not sure it would help.

... well.

[He hesitates slightly, not wanting to seem like he's trying to tell Neil what to do.]

It wouldn't hurt, would it? I mean, the windows probably aren't a good idea, but the door...

...I don't know. I have no idea what's out there.

[He's kind of terrified, on principle. Blame the blood on the wall. He doesn't want to stay in the study, but who knows whether the rest of the house is in place.]

I know... it could be something worse. It could be nothing, and you could--

[Be gone? He won't finish that sentence, so he lets it drift away with a quiet sigh.]

It'll be okay... somehow, it will. Just... just keep talking to me. I'm here, and I'm not going anywhere.

[He's not holding the device quite as tightly as he'd like to be holding Neil-- he'd probably hurt himself if he were-- but he is clutching it close to him.]

I think... I think I'd rather stay here, at least for a little bit more.

[Here he can at least talk to Todd, which means that as bad as it is it could be worse. If he managed to get the door open and the real world was outside-- impossible as that seems-- he might lose that.]

I'll get back. Somehow. I promise.

You will. I know you will. You have to.

I'm sorry I'm an idiot.

You're not an idiot.

I fell in. I should've been more careful.

I didn't mean to leave you alone.

And I went after Rosella and got my heart stolen a couple of months ago. You're not any more of an idiot than I am.

...I know you didn't.

I love you.

I love you, too.

It will be okay. It will.

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